Do you ever marvel

at how stupid you actually are? I find myself in constant shock in relation to my lack of intelligence. I'm not smart. I like music and movies. I love to read. And my biggest wish in the world is not be here/hide away for the rest of my life with my movies and music and books. Now, some people are just meant to be intelligent. Other aren't. I mean someone has to be average. I guess that's me. Average grades, no discernable unique qualities, average looks, average everything. I'm the kid that people look at and go, "Atleast I did better than her....sucks for her....". As I look around me, people I know have found things they excel at.

The only thing I semi excel at is makeup. WHOOPDIE FRICKIN DOO. That's a good life skill right there. This is even being down on myself, like YOU tell me that 70s and low 80s aren't average. YOU tell me how it is evident that I do excel at sports, art, writing, etc. BAHAHAH what a joke.

Hell I don't even have a personality. People may say, 'Of course you do!'. Oh really? Try and describe without the words loud, talkative, center-of-attention. It's damn near impossible. Do people know that I'm actually quite shy? And that maybe the reason I talk so much and so loudly is because I don't WANT people to like me. I want them to think I'm annoying. And they do. They really do. Its easier to be alone and do what makes my head happy, and my colors happy.

You could know me forever, but you don't me at all. For example, very few know that I was put in a crazy house for a week. Nobody knows that I am really a waste of skin who can only find life in the creations of others.

In the end, I'm glad nobody likes me. Because what's the point anyway?

Bobby Jindal sucks

He just...does...
He is trespasses on so many levels of fail, it's almost incomprehensible.
OH and he's an ass.
Also, the season finale of House was fekkin AWESOME. It's actually was a pretty big shocker.

History can go die

Along with teachers.
I feel weird. In a bad way.
I think I'm going to have a manic episode.
Joy.
Well actually, yes. Manic episodes are awesome. It's what comes after that sucks balls.

Wellbutrin is not my best friend

Also, Depakote apparently can cause severe birth defect in my future children. WHOOPDIE DOO. It's not like YOUR CHILD WILL BE BORN WITHOUT A BRAIN (anencephaly, which i advise you not to google because the pictures are disturbing). But it increases the likelihood of birth defects by ten times.

Speaking of anencephaly, this is a heated topic but most women abort babies who, I don't know, are MISSING THEIR FEKKING SKULL CAP. And their frontal lobes. Yes every life matters, but if a child does not have a frontal lobe, it won't survive for more than a few hours. The longest a baby has survived in maybe three days (with the exception of Baby K). And like I said, if you did google, it's disturbing. The child will not only never have a conscious existence, but will be insensitive to pain, deaf, blind, and lack an entire portion of its brain. As in, its brain is exposed.

Granted its rare, but I know for a fact anencephaly is not the only congenital defect, fetal defect, or medical reason for abortion. I'm not saying those women have to get abortions, but they should have the choice.

Only about 1 in 250,000 babies have anencephaly and are actually born.

Wow this is really opinionated in comparison to my other posts.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRO HEADED CHILD

:)
So I was at school briefly today. Blach. I have so much work to make up, its insane. And BIG SURPRISE. KID CUDI EXPLODED. I would just like to say, I totally found him 8 months ago. KEEP THAT IN MIND TEENAGE DOPPELGANGERS.
OH SHIT HOUSE IS ON TONIGHT.
Welbutrin is my new best friend.
AND GINGER.
HOW DO YOU HAVE A LUMP NAMED LEON? WHY WAS I NOT NOTIFIED?

MARISSA FREAKING FRITZ

Are you okay?

I have returned

Mursie dear, I would like to hear from you.
And you as well Ginger. And from you wifey.